A Little bit of typing for Sunday, so so. Allot of the days seem so short if you don’t watch the time and just follow the situation you will never think it’s taking too long. This weekend has now happened and I’m sure I could have done more but I simply did what I did.
Things I want to do next week, defiantly go swimming. And use the gym. At least 2x I want to do another long walk/run and swimming. I want to do a big shop, or go to a big shop. I want to be in a club for a while or in town for a while on some of these days and I want to finish off a book. Food wise I’m not spending money at work. I’m saving these pounds. Going to be using that money more constructively.
Maybe do a little trail running in the peak district. Imagine that doing a little night run, that mainly what its gona be like anyways.
Been reading a book known as Born to run, I forgot how much I enjoyed reading nonfiction books, it’s good to see that what you read and the amazing stories are actually researchable and you can really find the people in the stories. Which I find truly inspirational and amazing and undoutoubly wicked and sweet.
Imagine Running home, doing the 60 miles trip on foot. Wow could that be even possible in a day. IL be walking over to see you. Don’t worry about the car il just be running over to see you, for all I know it might even be more of a cool journey to run it. Or technically it’s doing it by jogging. It would be allot easier to just go through the night and with a torch. Imagine the fields and all the crops and trees and the simpleness of the whole task. How long would it take for someone to prepare for 50+ miles? I know that driving is super sweet and takes allot of fun to do, tonight’s drive was nice down some long and thick roads. Clouds and all the sort, but imagine trekking this hour after hour of the bliss of the heavens before you. Nice cream and purples. Dusk
Dusk, I can see this every day. It’s an awesome frame of time when the sky turns red purple and blue and gray. The objects in the forefront turn black and crisp against the back drop. Almost like some HD artist’s impression of a skyline. Its funky, it’s fresh and it’s a treat for the eyes. Probs going to get some shots of the derby Dusk. I think that camera would need to be of a high calibre.
Awaiting a relationship. It’s one of those situations where I keep thinking what the fuck, how come every one seems to be finding it so easy to meet people and have relationships. 1 I can never find people and 2 I can never have relationships. I don’t know why it’s just something that hasn’t happened in my life. It’s one of those things that happens so randomly that when the situation arises it’s often gone before I have a chance. Or it’s such a brief coincidence that it has had pretty much nothing to do with me. So after the chance situation has been and gone I’m left in the dust and thinking wow wtf just happened. So still none the wiser and when people ask me what I did or didn’t do I really don’t have much to say other than , err I’m not sure really. So not sure and being now 25 with a bunch of people who I don’t care to be around. What do I do? How do I make something out of this mess that is created? And why do I have to live this life where the situation is a fucking mess. The whole storey has unfolded so far in too a few years of a fucking shameful existence. A load of wasted time and a lot of fucking wasted time.
The problem is as well I’m so pissed off with the whole thing but also I’m really relaxed about the whole thing. Being below average is a relaxing state. It’s a weird storey where I am playing out a moppet and saying stuff that I really don’t connect with. The question why am I in derby. What would happen if I just left and went on walkabouts? Just saved 2 or 3 grand and then did 1. See where it takes me. Brazil and see those beach beauties.
Nah maybe not, I think Derby has all the culture I need. Or maybe not. It’s just one of those places where once your there it is very difficult to get away from. It’s in the middle so you think by being here your doing the right thing. But at the same time there really is only a few places. It’s on the doorstep of the peak district.
MMM not too sure, this should be good, more people’s problems to be solved by myself and its all for your water. How can I help you get your water, situations sorted? If you need your water I’m here to help sort it out. Let’s get the STW people done and sorted for they need water and we can’t be the ones to abuse our power.
Got a fucking ulcer in the back of my mouth, right on my throat and its pissing me off, how can anyone enjoy having ulcers they are one of those things that are there and really are shit. I had an infected eye 2 weeks ago and now I have an ulcer right near where I swallow, so the act of swallowing aggravates my ulcer in the back of my mouth. Why it’s so annoying to have this. I have no need to have this ulcer in my throat; it doesn’t serve any purpose for being there other than to piss me off. What is the use of an unclear; it’s a pointless thing to happen. I’ve been getting these allot recently. and they do my nut in they are red and swollen and sensitive and just lurk at the junctures of my throat with their little annoying pain and uselessness. OK give me an ulcer for a day or two sure flare up do your thing and then get going. But to hang around for a week, what does it want. Why after a week is it still there. ulcer what do you want from me hey? Can you now go away I don’t need you; you are an unwanted guest in my mouth. Hello be gone now!! I mean come on, I eat sensibly, I have enough sleep, I have a good level of exercise and a practically stress free life. And whaddah u know I go and get tired after work, I get a huge infection in my eye and an ulcer in my throat. What is the matter? This is a pointless thing that is holding me back once again. I have no reason for it. My immune system should have destroyed this already.
Why does the immune system take so long sometimes? I mean if I feel all good and healthy when something goes wrong it should be cleared up almost instantly. Not take a few days to pop up then hang around sore and swollen for days and days. Sort this shit out. I’ve gargled salt water I’m doing my bit. So solve this anomaly in my internal structure. Move the cells where they need to be and sort this ulcer out. It should be this simple. I don’t want to have ulcers and my immune system should just store that so if I do get 1 it gets cleared up fast and then they learn to never let that happen again. It doesn’t need to be there.
Should I eat tomorrow? I need to make simple foods. Perhaps the ulcer has come from my new little tip drinking warm lemon water each morning. That is an acidic drink. But also could have burnt my sensitive mouth. Water warm water. Now thats whats going to solve this. Last night, I kept waking up because I was so thirsty but I just went back to sleep instead of making the 10 second journey to the tap. UP drink and then go back to sleep. Not up think about water, think about going to sleep.
Water and lemon I can’t give it a full review just yet as I think it may have caused some side effects. Perhaps I’m not ready for its healing properties.
I drained myself.
I think I should have not but I did and now do I move forward or does this make really any difference.
Next week volunteer allot and be happy. When you know that you need to go up the fear and the dread of waiting to be called out can be solved by just calling yourself out. Go up get it done and sit down. When they come up to make a selection, you can sit happy knowing that you have already had your go.
Maybe next week I need to do something completely different. I’ve done the gym the swim and the walking. Maybe fix the bike and ride that for an hour or two. Look for a massage get the goggles. Though I really didn’t think it was that bad it would be nice to see under the water.
Is there any challenges or ideas I’m perusing at the moment?
I think apart from the touch typing and trying to get out the house seven days a week and drinking more water what else is there I need to add in. I’m also trying to do a daily session of Pe jelq and stretching. To gain better health. I would like to see Dusk all next week in different places. How about driving to the peaks or a nice place and viewing dusk there. Or a little Dusk run. I think save my money on the Vibrams although I do want them in the short term I’m gona go for the Nike frees , I will look for these next week. They look pretty good for what I want in the mean time and if I get the colour I want then they will serve as a good every day trainer. As well next week more more more. Will write another 1 tomorrow. Would love to go and see chase and status. That would be awesome.
